Friends? With You?

Have you ever wanted to stay friends with an ex? Have you ever wanted to stay friends with an ex, but couldn't? Has being friends with an ex caused problems with a new relationship?

Well, I've dealt with all of this.

Out of the... 4 boyfriends I have had, I am only friends with one. We still talk occasionally, check up on each other's lives and see if everything is ok. I admire our friendship because we make each other laugh, talk about our relationship problems & good things in relationships, the past, the present & some future. It's nice...
And, no. This is not my "baby daddy". I am actually not "friends" with him anymoe. I feel as if we didn't have Mia, we would not even think about looking at each other again, let alone keep each other's Myspace, Facebook & phone numbers. There is this awkward tension between us whenever I drop off Mia or he picks her up. We barely even look at each other. I know the break up was not the greatest thing in the world & we have different views, values, beliefs & goals, but that doesn't mean we can't be friends. For Mia's sake atleast.... But I don't know how to fix it and things can't be fixed with just one person cooperating. (Plus I don't know how to talk... to him atleast) Maybe one day we'll be able to work out our differences and be friends for the Mi-ster...

Yeah... This picture is for another blog. I'm just putting it here for safe keeping...

And then, there's the horrible break up. ( That's not supposed to be me in the pic. I never hold on to what is not there) OMG. I haven't even looked at this boy in 5 years. In school, if we walked past each other, our eyes were fixed straight ahead, noses turned up & strolled past making sure not to accidently bump into each other as we pass. He wasn't the greatest thing ever & he was definitely not my cup of tea. I saw him this summer at a bowling alley. It was like high school all over again. Walk past each other with just a glimpse of them in the corner of ur eye just don't make eye contact. (It shows your soul) Would I like to fix this issue with him? Sure! Why you ask? Because I don't want people thinking I hate them when I die when deep down, it's just some misunderstanding... But I doubt this would ever happen...He seems too big headed...

Sorry. I just thought this one was funny. ^___^ If people really did this, the there would be alot of single people out there... and STDs...

Then there's the jealous new boyfriend or girlfriend who is jealous that you still talk to your ex because of insecurities that you will leave him or her for him or her again. The way I see it, if we haven't gotten back together after this freakin' long, we aren't going to...
Or maybe ur boyfriend or girlfriend are TOO close to his or her ex. Like, they're best freakin friends. That can cause some issues... Of course. But I guess that's his or her choice in the end. Who matter more? The past that didn't work out? Or the future which has its possibilities?
Then again, some people are afraid of the future, so they hold on to what they had because its familiar. (But that's another topic)

So how do you feel about break ups? Do you stay friends with your exs? Do you want to fix the friendship between an ex?

1. a picture of you in your room

2. a picture with someone you don't really like.

Stupid Tressor Hugo. What aren't you famous yet? I want my $10 back! You're CD wasn't THAT great <.<

3. A picture with someone you love.

4.the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form.

I lost all of my older pics on my old computer =[

5. a picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.

You like.

6. a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.

Oh gosh...

7.a photo that you might have edited to make yourself more attractive.

8. a picture of a night you regret.

I shouldn't have worn this outfit >.<

9. a photo of you truly being yourself.

10. the most recent picture of you.

Well I look extra Emo...

11. a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.

12. a photo of you showing off a new haircut/color

13. a photo of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it wasn't.

*sigh* Good times... good times...

14. a picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more happy about it.

Pregnancy = Torture (for me atleast)

15. a picture when you were really happy.

My baby =]

16. a picture of you that you had no idea was being taken.

17. a picture of you when you were a different person than you are now.

18. a picture of how you'd like the world to see you.

19. a picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day.

20. a picture of a time when everything was changing.

21. a photo that makes your heart hurt.

I miss when everything was simple & we had no worries in the world but to have fun.

22. a picture that makes your heart smile.

Fill In The Blanks

1) My ex is... my baby daddy

2) I should learn to... speak Lao

3) I love... my daughter

4) People would say that I am... funny

5) I don't understand... why bad things happend to good people

6) When I wake up in the morning... I see my smiling Mi-mi

7) I lost... my mind

8) Life is... constantly changing.

9) My past taught me... to always look to the future

10) I get annoyed... by dumbness & ignorance

11) Party.. like its 1999

12) I wish... I made more money & was financially stable & could pay my way through Emory =[

13) Cats and Dogs... have feelings

14) My childhood pet... were rottweilers & a goat

15) Tomorrow... is a new beginning

16) I have a low tolerance for... liars

17) If I had a million dollars... I'd be content.

18) I'm terrified of...bees!

19) I've come to realize... I need to make higer standards for myself. I am worthy.

20) I am listening to... Conan O'Brien

21) I talk... to my peeps

22) My best friends... are lovely in every way =]

23) My first kiss... I don't remember....hum...must not have been important

24) Love is... something I'll never understand

25) Marriage is... something I believe is far or non-existent from my schedule in life

26) Somewhere, someone is thinking... about me! =D Or Mia most likely.

27) I'll always be... an introvert.

28) The last time I really cried... was a few weeks ago

29) My cell phone... is a rock. really.

30) Before I go to bed... I kiss & tuck Mia in.

31) My middle name... means "Dove"

32) Right now, I am thinking... about money

33) Today I... was busy

34) Tomorrow I... will be bust

35) I really want to... travel the world

36) The person most likely to re-post this... idk

37) The person least likely to re-post this... nadie.

38) My relationship with my parents... is not typical

39) My most treasured possession is... my life

40) My favorite pictures... are wonderful

41) I sing... all the time.... alone...

42) If I were a crayon... I'd be the coolest

43) Someday I want to travel... the world

44) I am wearing... clothing

45) My favorite language is... one that I can not speak

46) It hurts... when things are painful.

47) I am going to miss...my little baby staying a baby

48) My profile picture is... in the bathroom

49) I need... mo' money!

Oh, the wonders of....

I never thought that I would actually enjoy breastfeeding Mia. Its just amazing how I can provide food for my baby & how my body knows how much exactly she needs to be full. Also, how she can trigger more milk to be made. Humans are an amazing species. Along with other mammals too, but I just never thought we could be capable of such things.



But sadly, I have to stop breastfeeing soon because I'll be heading back to school & its difficult to breastfeed & go to school at the same time. =[


And engorged, full boobies are painful, unconfortable and just plain not fun at all. But if there were anyway I could continue, I would. I wanted to breastfeed her for about 6-7months, but now that is not looking very possible. My booby bear will still me regardless of where her food supply is coming from. I just think formula feeding isn't as bonding & loving as what nature wants us to do...





Anyway! I love my friends. I never thought that leaving high school would actually show you who your real friends are until I actually graduated.


They're always there when I need them and we know how to make each other feel better when times get on the rough side. Although our personalities are slightly different, that's what makes our times together even better.

All of the memories we have together. Running through a fountain in the Mall of GA & realizing we had no change of clothes. Walking through the mall trying to find clothes. Getting lost in the ghetto. House parties. Park fun. Whatever we could get our little grimy hands on became a new memory for me.
But what I love the most is that even through my pregnancy, they stuck through it all the way. I would have expected for me to loose every friend I had because I am young & no one expected little ole nerdy, smart, mute Raven to have a baby straight out of high school. When I told my 2 besties I was having a baby, they were more excited than I had ever expected.
(I told them at this restaurant)
And I really appreciate their support. And I know Mia will forever love her Auntie & Godmother. =]