Another Year Has Passed...

My 19th birthday is tomorrow and Mia will be 9 months tomorrow.
Yay for 01/21/09 and 10/21/90.
I still think it is so amazing how our birthdays are the same thing backwards. I always knew I made the right decision by not aborting my little stink because something told me that this would change my life in some way... And it has.

One year ago, I was 6 months pregnant. Looking like a bubble and did not expect such a little thing human could change my life so drastically.
From my daughter:

I have learned to not be selfish.

I have learned to appreciate each day that I have.

I am more careful with my life. I don't speed anymore.

I have learned that I don't have to go out and party every weekend to have fun; staying at home and singing the theme song to Backyardigans, Ni Hao Kai Lan and Wonder Pets & clapping along is just as fun for me.

I have learned that "finding Prince Charming" is now unimportant and I could care less; I have my little princess here and she will forever be 1000 times better than any wanna-be Prince.

I love that she can eat and share food with me now. She loves rice, veges and Italian food!

I can't wait until she is a little older so we can go out to eat together; I'll always have a lunch/shopping buddy now when my friends are unavailable.

I still find myself sitting next to her crib and watching her sleep & still think it is amazing that I have made such a beautiful thing. And in only 3 more months, she will be a year old. I can't believe how fast time has passed. I went from watching her sleep 16 hours a day to sitting up to crawling and waving good bye to me & saying "Mama" and "Baba".

In one year, my life has been completely turned around. Even though it gets pretty tough with school, family and a social life, but with my little Stink-stink by my side, I know I can get through this...

And the story goes...

I was thinking about documenting Mia's days, life, experiences through pictures & a journal.

And when she turns 18, I'll give it to her. This will take a lot of work, but I can do it =]

Here is an exerpt of what I was thinking...

"Dear Mia,

You'll be 5 months on on Sunday, which is also Father's day. Hopefully you're virus will pass by then so you can be a happy little baby once again because right now you have some pretty rough diarrhea. It's not pretty. It hurts you sometimes and it hurts me to see you cry histerically and I can't do anything about it but hold & rock you to sleep. But you still continue to smile and laugh with and at me, which lets me know you will be alright and this will soon pass.

We went to visit daddy today at Grandma Phoukeo & Grandpa Xayavong's house today. He was very happy to see you and so was you're cousin Jayden. He always loves to smother you with cute kisses and hugs as soon as you walk through the door. And even though Mommy & Daddy aren't together right now, Daddy wants you to know that he loves & misses you very much.

I know you won't remember these days as an adorable little girl, but I remember each day with you like its a movie I play over and over again in my head. I rememeber how much you weighed each time we went to the doctor. I remember every temperature you've taken. I remember the first time you laughed out loud. I remember when you first rolled over. "

Maybe I'll get it published someday. Be a best seller. But who knows?

Anyway. Ranting time. (this will be fun)

Ok. So why do such unattractive people try to jump on such attractive girls such as myself? I'm not being full of myself or overly confident, but I must say, I dont look bad. It seems as if now that I have my single status, a bunch of hideous monsters have been jumpin' on my jock & none cute! Not pretty, handsome, decent, precious, bangin', smokin', or any other slang out there for "good looking".

what's up with that?! Two, almost 3 weeks and not one look, snicker, glance, double take, friend request by one decent looking suitor. good grief.

Are all of the nice lookin' boys taken or are they intimidated that they'll look less attractive standing next to an attractive girl?

I think they all take ugly girls or girls with low self esteem so:

1) They'll look bangin' standing next to her

2) She'll put up with his mess

3) She'll do whatever he says cuz hey! She's already vulnerable.

Then the Oblongs wanna be hella bold now & jump on the first thing they see!

Even at Club Miami this thing tried to ask my ass to dance & I turned him down like a muther. Sheesh. Do they really think that I would lower myself to that?

**Well, I guess they dont think they're ugly in the first place...

They probably think they're the best thang smokin'! "God's gift to women"

(More like the Devil's prank to unsuspecting ladies.)

But still. Behind the pretty-ness of a guys face, there should be personality too.

And since I have a big personality, I need someone who can match up to that, and for some reason, there are none out there. Or atleast they haven't talked to me.

I've only met 1 guy who was close to my personality, but, sadly yet gladly, he is taken my a beautiful girl & I'm happy for him =]

I just can't have someone who wants to sit around, watch tv, facebook, myspace, blah blah blah all day. I need adventure!

Which is hard nowadays because that seems to be all the male species wants to do. (I forgot porn search on there too)

And I just realized I've never been on a date before. Yes, I've been on a dat with a guy I was going out with, but not actual "dating" as in "seeing if this person is the right person before calling them back & getting serious" kinda date.

Which might be why all my relationships end in disaster...

Plus I didn't think my age group/generation still did that anymore. (It would be nice though)

*sigh* But whatever. I'm happy being me, myself & I until I can find a me, you and us.

Possible Tattoo

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So this is my daughter's name in Thai.
(the closest thing to Laotian since she is Laotian & African American)
Im thinking about getting a tattoo of a butterfly with those letters in it.
It was hard finding a translator into Laotian, so I looked up a Thai-English translator. Sadly, Mia cant be translated in English exactly since it is and Italian name. It actually means "My" or "Mine".... i know... not much of a meaningful name, but hey! No one really cares about all that anyway!
But yes... I had to find an Italian-Thai translator just to get it. gosh. I guess you cant always find what you want on the internet...