My Celebrity Crushes♥

so. This is ♥Nick Simmons. Son of Gene Simmons (the lead singer of the band Kiss) And he was born January 22, 1989 which means he just turned 20 this year & young enough to be my future husband. (lol) I don't know why I find his so mysteriously hot but I do. Judge me all you want, this boy is fine. Such a Cali boy... But he is possibly my biggest celeb crush. His long, scruffy hair, deep seductive voice, & he inherited his fahters abnormally long tongue... creepy, but unique. Oh how I'd love to see our future black/Jewish/Canadian babies... Beautiful. Just like him

Aubrey (Drake) Graham. Do I need to say more? Just look! What's not to love? Except the much cussing in his song "The Best I Ever Had". Rihanna can move her little beat up ass over! I'm taking him if Nick doesn't break up with his girlfriend! I'll beat u up worse than Chris Brown eva did! (lol) That was mean... But true.

Travis McCoy of Gym Class Heroes. Why do I like him? Maybe its the multiple tattoos. Maybe its the many piercings and gauged ears. Or the big fro of curls. Whatever it is, I think he's adorable. And I'd fight Katy Perry's skank "kissin girls" self any day just to have a date with his creatively crazy self.

Ahh... Shia Le Beouf. What girl hasn't had a crush on him since Even Stevens? (Don't answer that if you haven't. You suck anyway! =D) Ok. So I forgot. If Nick & his girlfriend are serious, then I'm moving to Shia. If Shia & that thing-whore called "Megan Fox" don't work out (and he doesn't get AIDS or herpes from her), then he will be mine... yum. Look! He's looking at me! =D

Bill Kaulitz. He's the leader of the band Tokio Hotel. Now, you might be wondering why I think a guy with long hair & prettier eyelier than most girls is cute. And that's exactly why. Look at those soft features what make you just say, "awww!" I should go to Germany one day & have him teach me his makeup secrets.

And the twin brother of Bill Kaulitz is Tom Kaulitz! It's like a buy one, get one free offer, ok. Sure, they look nothing alike, but I guess it's the unique look he has. How many white boy dreads do you see everyday? How many GERMAN white man dreads do you see everyday? Eh? Eh?

James Blake... Why did you cut your cute hair? Why, God, did you let him cut it off? Couldn't you have used you mighty power & slapped him across the face before he did it? *sigh* He's still attractive though... Just not AS attractive...

Jamie Foxx is nice looking. Not up there with the rest, but decent. If he couldn't sing, dance or act, I'd be like "Bye!"

Freddie Prinze Jr. mmm....

Josh Hartnett. Yes... He was so cute in that Vampire movie... What's it called? 30 Days of Night! Scared the bah-hooties outta me, but his face made it better.

Brian J. White. I used to be obsessed with him.

Boris Kodjoe. Jizzing. Jizzing. Jizzing

Se7en. Aww! Isnt he adorable? Like a little pet Se7en you wanna pinch & hug ^___^ lol

Ok. So I can't think of anymore, but if I do, or any of my feelings change, I'll make a part two! Woo-woo! =D

Forever You and I

I thought this was so cute =]

But as you can see, this blog entry will be about le-marriage. Being married. Why people get married and my opinions/views on the subject.

*WARNING* If you do not support marriage for all, then I suggest you go right up there to the right-hand corner (left-hand side for Mac users) and exit out. And I mean NOW. Unless you're curious. Also, I am not the typical girl who has planned her wedding day at all. I haven't even thought of my wedding day... at all...

Anyway. It seems like these days, everyone is getting married. Weddings are booming like crazy. Ring shoppin', hinting things to your boyfriend like "wouldn't it be great if we had a family of our own?" or "So... When are you proposing?" But is everyone getting married for the right reasons?

I hate how all over the media is displaying that weddings are nothing more than tons of money spent on nothing just so a girl can throw the dream Barbie glitz & glam wedding she has been planning since she was 5 only to divorce the guy about 3 years later. (Ok, maybe a little dramatic) But really. To myself, I feel as if people are getting married for the attention and not because you truely love that person. Kind of as a way to make it ok that you have been living together & getting busy this whole time with out an offical "we're married" title.

Really. Do you think EVERY bride in white is that virginal?

On top of that, I thought this country was supposed to have a separation of church & state. So why can't gay and lebian individuals be married? If they truely love that person, why deny them the right to join as one before God if they aren't hurting you or bothering you? Everyone has to remember, God made people. Which means God MADE gay and lesbian people... (inyoface)

I'm not sure if I'll ever be married. Mostly because I'm a package deal now. Buy 1 Raven get a Mia free! I have to make sure my daughter likes this guy and is comfortable around him also. Marriage is not just for me anymore. It's for MY little family. Also, I'm not sure if I'm wife-material. I'm more on the independent side of the railroad tracks & some guys are intimidated by that. They might want a girl who would listen to their every word like he's the next prophet and I'd probably divorce him before he knew what was happening. And Destiny's Child making that song "Cater 2 U". My religious higer being! I could have cut dem bitches for making a song like that! I would never "cater" to a guy like how they describe. I hate that song... Deeply...

Is it sad that I probably planned my divorce more than I've dreamed about my wedding? I guess because I've been exposed to so much negativity with marriage that I really don't find it as a serious thing. I kind of see it kind of as a joke in a way. (I know what you're thinking. Raven has a heart of ice... and I do. Keeps me strong.) After all, my parents divorced when I was like... 7? Maybe 8? I don't even remember & the marriage wasn't too smooth anyway. *negativity* Plus my disappointment/anger/rage in the past with the male species hasn't helped either... at all...

I just think people need to stop and think if they are making the right decisions before jumping into something SO sacred and religious. (And this is coming from the agnostic girl who avoids going to church)

Me? I'm not sure what the future has in store for me. Maybe I'll be alone with just me, Mia & my chihuahuas. (I want 2-3) Maybe I'll be happily married to one person until I leave Earth. Who knows? My negative views will change as I get older (I hope) and when I actually find a guy worth my time and energy and is serious about a relationship & more... Not just for a fling here & just to say "I gotta gf!" Along with Mia's beauty & presence too. =]

Until then, I'll be happy with what I have: my healthy life and a beautiful little girl to share it with.

"Emotions Taking Me Over..."

What a good song...

But anyway. About the songm the lyrics and most of all, our emotions. Yes.

We all have them.

Some express them more than others.

All I know is that I usually keep mine inside.

Which i know isn't good for you but I don't like to do so because it makes me feel like

im vulnerable and can be taken advantage of because someone might think I am weak.

(long explanation)

But yes.... I guess I'll let some out now... Keyword: SOME

I have a problem with showing excitement. I don't know how to show that I am appreciative either. So I just smile.

Is that weird? I just never know how to show this without looking fake or sarcastic...

Happiness is always nice. Sure it chooses to come around occasionally... more like whenever it feels like saying "HEY!"

lol. But still. Many things make me happy and I appreciate those moments because who knows when they'll be back.

I don't live the most peachy life or lifestyle and its the little things that make me smile and happy that I'm able to

experience them.

Anger, anger,anger. We are too closee of friends. I try not to show it but I'm angry like.... multiple times a day. Many times a week. Thousands of times a year. I just try not to show it because I don't want a bunch of people on my case like they actually

care about my problem... Unless you really do. Then just ask! But I'm not sure if many ppl will ask because I never really tell or show when I'm really angry. Maybe you can read the signals.....

Yes... I used angry Arthur. =P

But mostly I have been disappointed lately. Very. Disappointed in myself, in aquaintances, in loved ones, in friends...

It seems like I expect too much out of myself and I let myself down. Then I put too much trust in people I guess, and then

they just end up letting me down. Especially lately/recently. I was lifted up SO high! And then pushed off the moon to free fall

back to Earth... And the fall, it didn't take that long for me to hit solid ground & shatter. Shattered.

Kinda hurts sometimes, but I'll never show it. Or say anything. I just pick up my pieces , put them back together the best that I can without help

& keep going like nothing happened.Even though it tears me up inside...Sure, everytime I fall, the pieces are not going to be perfectly put back together.

Some pieces are missing little bits. Some are rough around the edges. And I guess eventually, I'll have so many

missing pieces that I won't be able to put myself back together like before... maybe...

<---That was me. falling...minus the "white girlness"

Well, I guess that's all I have for now...

How have emotions gotten in the way with you? How do you cope with and express these feelings?

How I Missed Thee!

So, as some of you know, my little Mi-ster is currently 6 months old. Growing fast, talking, laughing and just being the cutest darn thing smokin'! (Not really smokin, but you get the slang) I just never thought she would be so developed mentally at this age. Sure, I know she knows I'm mommy. The boobie-giver. The one she kicks in the back to wake up in the morning then laughs at me because I look like I just got ran over by a truck.

I just never thought this would happen now...

So, I let Mia go visit her Papa on.... Tuesday. Every kid needs to see their father every once in a while, right? I drop her off, say bye, and head my little booty back home for some well deserved T.L.C, and I'm not talking about the band. *Comedic drums: buhdum-dum*

By about 9pm, I get a text from father saying "Can you get her; she's being very fussy." Of course I'll get her, but it was raining like a herd giraffes were peeing on my house so I told him I'd get her in a little when the rain lets up a little. Mostly because I had just did my hair earlier & it was lookin straight BOMB, yo! And its not too safe to be out driving in a freakin' hurricane with a baby. (Duh) He then offered to take her home & I was thinking "dang... she must be straight trippin' if he can't wait to take her home..."

My Mia arrives home & thank God the rain had let up alot cuz she woulda been hella wet. (I don't think I packed a blanket for him to throw over her car seat) I looked at my stink & she looked kinda irritated but I just thought "she fell asleep during the little 5 minute ride home". When I took her out of the car seat, she just "hugged" me & layed her head on my shoulder. I thought oh, she must be tired. I sat in the rocking chair to rock her back to sleep.

When I got up to put her down, I saw she was wide awake. I picked her back up & she layed her head back on my shoulder & gave me another "hug".

She stayed like this for about 15 minutes, and the first thing I thought was "aww... my little baby missed me that much!" She has never done something like this before. I guess because I'm around her like her conjoined twin, and she realized "Mommy is gone. I want mommy!!"

I know eventually she might be saying "I hate mommy. Why won't she go somewhere so I can b free. Gosh!" But for now, it's nice that she finds comfort in me when she feels bad, feels sick, or is lonely.

After all, they say there is nothing that can compare to a mother's love...

Laughing Out Loud

I love some of these funny tees. I think they're funny. Well, some are funny. Other are entertaining. Like if you saw someone in the mall & read one of these shirts, you'd be like "Wow." or LOL.

Here are some of the shirts I thought were entertaining...

A little nerd joke.

This one was good, but I say Tacos.

But all of these funny t-shirts can be found at www.clutchtees.com where you can buy them yourself! yay! Just thought I'd let you all know & have a nice laugh.

Sushi + Swine Flu = Qué?

So I was skimming the internet & came across this article about the swine flu. we all know about it, got scared & now it has pretty much subsided to just a little trickle instead of the waterfall of news & reports we had about a month or two ago. Sheesh...

You can find the original article here or just go to www.healthyfellow.com and read some other articles about health things & such.

The article was mostly about the consumption of fish oil & how it might be bad for you, may have a link to swine flu, etc... Researchers did a study on mice that were fed fish oil & corn oil rish deits & found the mice who had the fish oil had a slightly higher mortality rate than the other...

I know. We all thought fish oil was good for us, but then again, what is good for us anymore? Too much water can poison you body, too many vitamins can do the same...

But the big part of this study is that the CD8+ & CD14+ cells (found in the spleen to fight off infection & diseases) were less in the fish oil mice than the corn oil mice. Why is this important? Well, lower immune system + swine flu = NOT GOOD.

They also found that children who were FORCED to take fish oil (like my self when I was a youngster) had lower CD8+ and CD14+ cells.... Yeah. Thanks mom for forcing me to drink nasty crap & lower my immune system so I can't fight off the killer pigs... Show you cared a lot... (Like my sarcasm?!)

So what can we say from this? Wash your hands, use Germ-X & wear those stylish face masks!

And don't forget to thank you mothers & fathers for forcing you to drink/swallow that nasty fish oil as a kid. I know I will!

lol. Fish Oil.

Los Surveys Para Mi Boredom

1. you had me at hello. have you ever met someone who you instantly liked?
I don't think so. It takes time for me.

2. monument. when was the last time you felt pressured to do something or to be something?
hum... idk. probabky something with school

3. heartless. have you ever had a really rough/bitter breakup? yeah.

4. here's to the past. do you find yourself dwelling on the past often?
Not really. I try to look forward.

5. fast forward to 2012. what / who do you put first in life?
My daughter & school

6. plot to bomb the panhandle. have you ever felt like you gave into something for too long?
yah.

7. a second glance. what's the last thing / person you had to wait for?
Hum... I had to wait for Mia to be born.

8. the downfall of us all. - do you ever just want to pack up & leave where you live?
Yeah.

9. my life for hire. - do you tend to hold onto grudges?
Sometimes.

10. have faith in me. - do you think people have faith in you & your judgement?

I hope so.

11. homesick. - when's the last time you felt homesick?
When I was at school

12. holdin' it down for the underground. - do you feel like you've lost a lot in the past year?
I dont think so.

13. another song about the weekend. - soo ..have anything fun planned for the weekend?!
not yet. but maybe.

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Have you ever used bing.com?
nope

Who would you save, a dying puppy or a dying old woman?
Both!

Are your eyes the same color as your dad's?
Yes. Because we're black & most black people have brown eyes.

What is your boyfriends name?
Don't have one...

Do you like his name?
N/A

Do you know his middle name?
Lalala...

Is he embarrassed by it?
*cricket noise*

Have you ever met his parents?
*Cough*

Have you met him in person?
Skipping... what?! who wouldn't mee their bf?!

Is it a long distance relationship?
*Burp*

Is he older than you?
I go for older people anyway...

Have you ever crowd surfed?
No, They'd drop me.

Did you ever watch the Land Before Time when you were younger?
Yeah! LOVED IT!

Which Olsen twin do you like better?
Mary Kate

Are you single?
Why, yes, I am.

Have you ever gone to Warped tour?
No. I'd probably be the only black person there...

Do you prefer profile pictures by yourself of with someone else?
Doesn't really matter... But usually by myself. Cuz im conceited like that.

When's the last time you had Sunny D?
Long time.

Do you and your friends ever make up 'code names' for people?
Lol. yeah... those were the good ol' days...

Would you rather have eggs or waffles for breakfast?
Neither. I dont like breakfast food

How long would it take to walk to the nearest McDonald's?
Long time.

Who's the last person you shot a dirty look to?
Not sure... probably Khai

Have you ever burned a photo of you and a person you were angry with?
No.

Would you prefer working at a grocery store or an ice cream parlor? Why?
ice cream parlor!!!

Has anyone ever told you they liked you in a realllly sweet way

Yeah

What's the most comfy thing to sleep in?
My bed...

Does the last person who sent you a message online wear makeup?
Yes

Do you bring pillows on road trips?
Sure do

Do you like camping, or would you rather stay home?
Stay home

Do you think Super Bad was as funny as everyone said?
Its up there...

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
Out of the house. Lost.

Are you one of those people who obsess over Audrey Hepburn?
Say who??