Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Day 30: Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Raven,

You've come a long way since being a little kid running in the backyard of your Sacramento home. You graduated like 75th out of nearly 600 students with a 3.67 GPA. You go to Emory University which is apparently a "really good school". You don't know. You just applied to go there because your mom said I should. You had never heard about it. You have a great little daughter who makes you laugh even when you want to discipline her. You also have crazy sisters who make you seem like the normal one of the family.

Sometimes, I think you push yourself too hard. Sure you made a 98% on that religion test. That's good. But those two points you could have gotten still irk you inside because you know what you did wrong. I rushed and wrote the word "soul" instead of "consciousness" when writing about Buddhism. Anatman! Anatman! Anatman! Or that 94% on the history midterm. You think, "What other sentences could have added those 6 points?!" You are never good enough for yourself. Sometimes, its good to be your own mother always nagging in the background of your own mind. Keeps you motivated. Keeps you on top of things. Other times, it makes you angry and bitter. Even though you know no one is perfect, you still strive for it... a little too much...

Your future isn't fully clear. Go to med school somewhere. Maybe Emory. Maybe UC San Francisco. Maybe Harvard! In between there, you'll travel the world with your sidekick. Live in another country for a year or two. Eventually, you'll open a school or multiple schools in developing areas of the world. Nicaragua, Thailand, Laos, Angola, Egypt, India, Bangladesh, Russia, Ukraine. Maybe even name one after Mia in Laos. (Hong Hian Mia I think. My Lao is rusty) The world is full of opportunities and is open to you. Might as well find out as much as you can...

Overall, I hope you do everything you hope to do in your life, and ultimately help others. That's been your goal since you were young. Travel the world & teach pregnant women & mothers in developed areas how to have healthier prenatal and postnatal care, as well as healthier lifestyles. Helping children have access to books & schools. It may be a dream now, but it will come true sooner or later... You'll see...

Love, Raven

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